Birthday Fun...

Yes its my birthday, well actually my birthday was yesterday april 25, but was out all day to celebrate. i remembered this morning that i wanted to make a new post and was a little upset that i didnt have time yesterday. i hate posting the day after something but its ok. no big deal. i just like to do things on the day of. 

Well as far as my birthday went it was great. i went to my parents in the morning for a visit and a cake cutting. it was chocolate cake (my favorite). i also got to visit my dogs. i love those furry babies of mine. then did some shopping. in the evening i went home and got ready. went to dinner with my boyfriend. ended up getting free drinks and dessert since it was my birthday. then after dinner we went home to relax for a little while. 

i also went out for a late dinner with some friends last night. they had to work so we meet up late. my man sadly couldnt join b/c he had to work this morning so he needed to get to bed earlier. i had a great birthday. it was the best one ive had in a long time. so happy i got my days off work request so i could enjoy it. 

Last month my man and i celebrated our 6 month anniversary. we spent the day together and went out in the evening. i brought us a cute little cake to enjoy in the evening. we went out to dinner at a nice water front restaurant. after dinner we went back home and enjoyed the cake. i have been so happy with him since we started going out. i havent felt so loved and wanted and appreciated in years. im grateful to have him in my life. i hope we have many more years together. 

Hello everyone. i didnt realize that it had been almost a year since i blogged. i cant believe that. i guess life gets crazy and takes over. every so often i think about something to post but forget to or get distracted with the craziness i have been through in the past year. i used to be on here all the time. i miss blogging. i will definitely be blogging more often again. 

Well in some of my last posts i was talking about my life as far as my boyfriend, best friend, and life in general was doing. first off my boyfriend and i are broken up and to be honest i am happy about it. it turns out that the strange feelings i was having turned out to be true. for a while since he had been busy working i had weird feelings of him doing other shit. i had ideas but didnt know what for sure. i was called by a woman last year that claimed to be a relationship with him and has a child with him. i was hoping that, even though she sent me pictures as proof, that it wasnt true but in the back of my mind i knew it was. i finally had a chance to confront him in person a while back and we talked. i let him know what i knew and he admitted it trying to tell me he was sorry and that he did it b/c he was mad at me over something stupid and that it was a one night stand, but the pics prove otherwise. even if it started that way it turned into a relationship at some point. i was almost surprised to see him start tearing up but then again we did have over 12 years together. i hope he felt at least a little the way i did when i first found out. 

well im happy to report hat everything else is going well, finally. first off i was able to get an apt. yes i moved away from the shithole area and apt i lived in for a nice one in a gated community back in oct. i was lucky to end up seeing it when i did b/c they were having a rent special which actually made this usually expensive community affordable for me. i love where i live, it has everything. my job is good and stable. i do miss some of my coworkers that recently quit but thats ok. we made friends so we keep in touch. there is something else involving the job that i will bring up in a future blog and its something great. i hope it goes through. so far it is going right on track and i plan to keep it that way. i hope it happens soon. 

the situation with my best friend has improved but still generally the same, but still good though. we have hung out a little more. we also talk and text more often again. she still mostly busy b/c of her kid but thats her life now. i have gotten used to it so it doesnt bother me anymore. i just go with it.

i am very happy to report that i have a new love in my life. yes i am with a new boyfriend and things are going great. we have been together about 5 months now and i am very happy. he has a great job/career and he also is a certified mechanic (thats what he used to do and still does on the side sometimes) so i dont have to worry about anything with my car anymore which is great. and the good thing about this relationship is that we knew each other for years, we were friends before, since high school actually. ever since i got with him everything has improve for me and him. he also knew my ex but my ex doesnt know about us. i prefer to keep it that way. even if he finds out doesnt matter. he lost me. and it also will be great to have someone to spend valentines day with. my ex hasnt done anything with me on that day for years.

So there is it. thats whats has happened to me over the last year. things went from shit to great. i am very happy and grateful for how my life has changed. i pray for it to get even better. 

As you can see from the pic today is my birthday. i am kinda happy about celebrating but then again still a little sad about what has been going on in my life. my last post is all about that. gonna go out with a few close friends tonight for dinner and hopefully a movie and more but we'll see how it goes. it is a weekday after all and a work and/or school day for most. sadly my bf as usual wont go out b/c of the baby. i expected that so i'm not surprised. hopefully we can hang out for a bit tomorrow since she will be traveling again on friday for months. my man is still outta town so i really am sad about that. he might not be back until the weekend or next week and my bday is today but his is on friday. i was hoping we would be able to be together for these next few days but i guess its too much too ask lately to be with the 2 people i love the most, my man and my best friend. well anyway despite whats been going on i will still try to be positive and have a great time with my friends tonight. its great to have close friends in your life.

hello everyone. i know it has been months since i have posted anything. i noticed many of the bloggers i follow have done the same. i didnt even realize it until recently. i have however been keeping up and reading the blogs that i follow even if i havent commented much. 

the job is the same as usual. more events have been going on during these months so most of the time things have been full and busy at work. which is good in a way. it means the job is still there.

things between my best friend and i, well, sadly nothing has changed. i thought we would have gone out today but no, she canceled on me. i had a feeling it wouldnt happen. she feels she needs to be with her kid 24/7 just b/c the kid has a bad rash. her mom or husband (yeah he is in town at the moment) are home and can babysit. my friend feels like she is the only one that can take care of her. ok if thats what she feels that she needs to do then ok fine. i know shes a new mom and she feels she needs to do this but this is exactly what i was afraid of. i knew that as soon as she had a kid that i would barely see her. i dont even care to hang out with her much anymore. i just pretty much got over it and have lost the excited feelings i used to have when we would hang out anyday or anytime. i know u gotta take care of ur kids but i hate how people change when they have them.

as far as my love life is concerned, well, i dont know. my man is outta town right now visiting family (although when hes back home he is still working alot). i miss him. sadly i recently got some info that i need to speak to him about but have to wait til he comes back home. i have to talk to him in person. i dont know for sure if this info is true or not but i hope, wish, and most of all am praying to God that its not. it hard to deal with this info at the moment but i am a patient person and would rather give benefit of the doubt first just in case. how serious is this info u ask, well, if its true it will be the reason for me to have to leave him after many years together. i am very saddened by this and have been depressed over it (hence the pic at the top). in case you are wondering if there is any chance i could forgive him after being together 12 years (the 1 friend i told about this asked. hes a friend of both of us), NO, there is not.  if this info is true then this will be something i warned him about years ago and it is an unforgivable act to me b/c i consider it  a betrayal to me. at this time i am not saying what it is exactly, but im sure after a guess or 2 some of you might already know what it is anyway. mainly just in case its not true i dont wanna say what it is just yet. i dont know when i will talk to him but the sooner the better.

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year everyone! i hope everyone had a good night and a lot of fun. i hope 2012 will be better for everyone. sadly i had to work but it was an ok night. my man is still outta town but i did get to talk to him yesterday. i really miss him. i think this year is gonna be even better for me. some of the goals i set for myself last year i was able to achieve. hopefully the other goals i have i will get to do this year. forget hoping, i will achieve them. first up will be to get a few more things fixed on my car, its runs great but got a few things to take care of with it. then i plant o get a place. i get so excited at the thought of finally moved out into my own place. also i really want to get back into school this year. another thing will be to get started on the businesses/real estate that my man and i wanna do. i hope everyone will get everything they want this new year. Have a great 1st day of the year everyone.