6 things that make me happy...

I have been tagged by Ebony Haywood at Sizzling Publications. I am supposed to name 6 things that make me happy. I also tag all of my readers to do this if you would like to. Here we go:

1) relaxing with some good tv or movie at home. and, of course, some good snacks.

2) talking walks in the park or on the beach. i especially love to walk on the beach at night when the moon is out.

3) hanging out with my boyfriend and/or friends.

4) having time to read/write or do some drawing and painting. sometimes i like to do crafts. creative stuff basically.

5) playing with my pet dog. well actually my moms dog, i dont have a pet right now. my moms dog is cute and very playful. i always have fun playing with her.

6) driving. when theres no traffic. i like to put on the radio to a relaxing station and just drive. i dont know why really. doing this just relaxs me. i feel free and very much independent when i do.

Yay, another award!

I just received this award by Kathie @ my net finds. She has a great blog and i would suggest you check her out.

"I made this award for the special bloggers who take the time to not only read my posts, but also leave comments, respond to comments, form blog friendships with and support others, answer blogger questions, etc.....the ones who are a real "gem" in the bloggy world. The bloggy world wouldn't be the same without you!"

Thank you again Kathie. I love it.

I love having time off from work.

So my wonderful readers i am finally posting again. sorry that i have not done so lately because i have been so tired and drained from work. i know you can relate. i have had to do a lot of over time the past week but what the hell, its more money. i also have noticed some new followers recently. thats great. i want to thank all my followers for following me. its feels great to know that you're reading my blog.

So my day off was yesterday. wasnt sure what to do but after sleeping during the day (i work the overnight shift) and relaxing in the afternoon i felt pretty good and wanted to do something. had a night out planned with my boyfriend and another couple who are friends of ours. they live a bit far and we werent in the mood to drive that far but if they could go out then thats great. turns out they werent able to make it anyway so we're gonna hang out another time.

So not sure what to do i just suggested a movie. its been a while since we went to one. we wanted to do something simple and local. we saw Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. i have to say that we thought this was a great movie. with every harry potter movie that comes out it gets better, more scary, more mature, more serious, and just as much fun to watch as always. i recommend anyone that hasnt see it yet to go see it. its amazing how far this series has gone. i cant believe this is the 6th movie and just one more is left. it will be sad to see the series end but its been great. i would say i cant wait to see the last one but i can since it will be the last one.

Anyway, we had a great time last night. after the movie we went somewhere near by and had some pizza. we love simple date nights. we just like to enjoy eachothers company, eat some good food, and overall have a good time. the only thing that would have been better would have been if we could have gone home together. we both live with friends at the moment. neither of us is making enought money yet to get a place together. soon enough. patience is important. well, that was how my night off went. its back to the rat race later tonight. not in the mood but, of course, have to. i just remind myself that i'm lucky to have a fulltime job in this economy and i feel better again. so, my wonderful readers, what do you like to do when you go out?

I got another award!

So i just found out today that i got another award. Yay for me! :) This award was given to me by Lyn Hernandez.

"The Humane Award is to honor certain bloggers that are kindhearted individuals who regularly take part in my blog and always leave comments :) This lovely award is to thank those individuals for their growing friendships through the blog world."

Thank you again Lyn Hernandez.

I got tagged, your turn!

So my fellow bloggers i have been tagged by one of my followers Ebony Haywood. She tagged me with "The Honest Scrap" award and i tag all my followers with it too.

1. “The Honest Scrap” award is not one to hold all to your self but it must be shared!
2. First, the recipient has to tell 10 true things about themselves in their blog that no one else knows.
3. Second, the recipient has to pass along this prestigious award to 10 more bloggers.
4. Third, those 10 bloggers all have to be notified they have been given with this award.
5. Those 10 bloggers that receive this award should link back to the blog that awarded them “The Honest Scrap’ award.

This sounds like fun. So, 10 things about myself, ok here we go:

1) I like food too much sometimes. I also kinda addicted to soda.

2) I think puppies and kittens are the cutest things ever.

3) I dont really get along with my family.

4) I love to get in my car (when i had one) and drive on the empty highway in the middle of the night playing relaxing music and just driving.

5) I love spending time with my friends eating, drinking (sodas mostly, i'm not that much into alcohol but enjoy a beer or mixed every now and then), playing board games, watch tv or movies and talking about good times.

6) I want to win the lottery but always forget to play.

7) I like going to school.

8) I hate when some people i know try to take advantage of me by trying to get my to drive them places or give them money if we go out but never want to do the same for me if i need it.

9) I cant stand being yelled at.

10) I'm a big kid at heart, i still love cartoons, playing games, eating candy, and all the other stuff that makes you feel good.

It's My 3 Month Job Anniversary!

For the past week i have been feeling a bit blah. just like the cute kitty in the picture, this is how i feel. kinda drained lately. it's a combo of different things but i'll be ok soon enough. but i just realized that i have been at my job for 3 months today. its a good feeling. my job is pretty good. there's a bar at my job and the bartenders are great. i became good friends with one of them.

As lucky and grateful as i feel that i have a job i also sometimes feel tired of it, and its only been 3 months. anyone else ever feel like this? i really am grateful that i have the job. when you havent worked in a year and a half of course you'll be grateful but i guess its like something my boyfriend says. he believes that i wasnt meant to work for anyone. i very much agree. i hate feeling ungrateful for the job, i really do. i guess you dont have to work long at a job to take its toll on you, especially when you work over night like i do. right now this job really is good for me. the late shift is the best one at my job, its calm, quiet, and i barely deal with people. the best part is that i never see my boss. its like its my own business and i'm in charge, which i am during my shift.

As far as not working for someone, that is my dream. i want to own a small business, or a few, and not have to work for someone else. i also see how employees get treated at jobs and i dont like it. i want to be different, i would like to be a good boss, i want to provide jobs that people want to work at and would enjoy with decent pay. thats one side, on the other, like anyone else i want to have the freedom of not having to go into work everyday and lettings others take care of it. of course i would handle my own business but want trustworthy people that can take care of things if i cant or dont want to work during a certain time.

How about everyone else, you ever feel like this? What are your dreams and goals? What do you want in your life that would make you happy and complete?

Happy 4th of July!

Happy 4th of July to everyone. Happy Birthday America, 233 years old today. As we all know everyone is gonna be out tonight eating, drinking, hanging out with friends, and of course, shooting fireworks. I love fireworks, every since i was a kid. I guess i'm still just a big kid and there's nothing wrong with that. Anyone that says different is just wrong. There's a different between being a kid at heart (me) and just being an immature adult.

BBQ's seem to be the most popular form of eating today. Everywhere is having one. My friends are throwing their own, my job is having one too, even some of my family is doing it also. I was planning to go up north, about 3-4 hours car trip, to stay at a friends having a (yeah, you guessed it) a bbq. He just got his first house a week ago so this is also his house warming party. And he has a pool too so its gonna be good. My boyfriend and i werent able to make it but we got invited by some other friends for dinner tonight and its nearby a major park that will be shooting fireworks after. I cant wait.

I want to thank all my followers for following my blog and to those that arent and wish everyone a great holiday today. Whatever you decide to do i hope everyone has fun.

Co-workers...cant live with them, sure as hell dont wanna work with them.

You know i really try to do my best at work and any job i have done but there is always something that happens. I'm sure anyone can relate. Especially when coworkers just dont care about doing the job right and it causes you problems. So yesterday at work i got called in the office by my manager and by the owner of the business. I figured this isnt good. I get lectured about not doing something right. 2 days ago one of the housekeepers called early in the morning (i was just about to get off work) and told me she was in the hospital and wouldnt be going in that day. Shes ok but wasnt feeling well and wanted to get checked out.

So i take the message. My coworkers and i have this log sheet where we write down what going on or messages the need to be passed down. Normally we write down whatever we need to and then before our relief comes in we reprint a new one with the new messages in there. Since i got the call at the last minute i couldnt reprint a new one, i had already logged out of the system. But i wrote the message down on a post it note and on the log sheet, i told my coworker about the situation and to tell her relief about it when they came in and to tell the manager also when she comes in a few hours later, and i even told her to reprint a new log sheet with the message. I even sent an email about it to the manager myself. The reason for emails is because we are required to send an email to the manager at the end of every shift to see if anything is going on. I try to cover my ass a much as possible.

So it turns out that her relief ended up having to do front desk duties plus housekeeping because no one knew of the situation. My relief had never reprinted a new log sheet she ended up throwing it away, she threw away the note too and didnt tell the manager or her relief. The manager didnt know only because she didnt feel like checking her email like she is supposed to when she came in. So because this one coworker didnt do something so simple i got lectured by the manager and the business owner because i was the one that got the phone call. This is not the first time she hasnt done her job. This particular coworker wont print other forms or envelopes that we need, she wont answer emails or take messages or calls. She admitted to us that she wont do it. I am finding this out from my other coworkers that feel the same about her. We are all irritated by her laziness. Seriously, wtf is that, we all have our job to do and she needs to do it like the rest of us. Its not a hard job but there are a lot of little things that need to be done. She has admitted that she dont care about the job, she is just there to have something to do and to have a little extra money in her pocket. Whatever. Well as far as i am concerned i no longer trust her and will just do whast i need to do to cover my ass. I am not risking a new job for nothing after having not worked for so long.

"The Good Die Young"

That old saying is so true in many cases. What a sad day when Michael Jackson, the "King of Pop", a legend, an icon, worldwide superstar, whatever you liked to call him, passed away. By the reaction all around the world we all know how much Michael was loved. This is a good moment for this post, i am actually watching 'The Jacksons' movie on tv right now. Michael was a great man that did a lot for many people around the world and has been through a lot himself. His music was an inspiration to me and many others.

There are some mixed feelings about Michael too. We know that many loved him and will miss him and i'm sure that there are those people that believe all of the allegations he had against him and are happy or dont care that he is gone. One of my co-workers said to me "are they still on Michael Jackson, whaetver, everyone just needs to get the fuck over it. Who cares, we all die someday anyway." I guess this is how her friends and family should feel when she dies. It may be true that we all die someday but damn how about a little respect for the people around you. Whether you liked Michael or not is your opinion, of course, but just have respect. Michael had friends and family just like the rest of us. I'm a big fan of Michael and so were the other people hanging around that heard her. I work in a hotel so the people that were near her in the lobby actually gave her dirty looks and got up and left. If some other famous person died that i hated but others are fans i would keep my mouth shut just out of respect for the people that can hear me.

It is kinda scary how all the celebrities died recently. Just today i heard the Billy Mayes died also. He's the guy that created the Oxi-clean products. My dog that i loved so much died back in 07 and i still miss her. I raised her her parents from puppies and then when she came out i helped raised her from birth. She was 15 when she passed and i was heartbroken over it. I had a friend that died back in 99 and i miss him too. He died in a car accident. Death for many is sad regardless. Some people will think that its a good thing because maybe the person was suffering or that being alive is hell and death is better than living. Either way i just think that its sad that when someone dies you wont see them again. Part of the fear of death is not knowing where we go after. There are religions that say this or that, theories, evidence (if you think its true) that shows ghosts and spirits, people that say nothing happens you just die and thats it. Death can be sad or happy depending on what you believe, but one thing i think we can all agree on is that death is one of the most mysterious things in this world.

Good ole days...

Any of you ever think back about your high school days. Sometimes i do and sometimes i dont. Other times i think about it too much. I went out to dinner with an old friend of mine recently. We got back in touch some months ago after finding eachother online. We have hung out several times since finding eachother again and we have caught up on so many memories. I dont know about anyone else but many times i have wished i could go back to high school and start over again from there. There are so many things i tried to do since then or tried to achieve and it just didnt happen no matter how hard i worked for it.

I dont know, maybe even if i could go back who's to say that things wouldnt have turned out the same, better, or worse. I have thought to myself maybe i should have done this or that and maybe i would be more successful now. I have learned that success is defined by you and no one else. If you are one of those people that like having a 9-5 type of job then that is success for you. If you are one of those people that have to have a big career like being a doctor or lawyer then that is success for you. Its kind of like that old saying about beauty, its in the eye of the beholder. For me success is more about being able to make money to live while still having the freedom to enjoy my life. Thats why i want to own my own business. I used to work in a ice cream dessert place and i loved it. I actually would like to have a business like that for myself. I'm more into the smaller retail type of business, not the big complicated corporate thing. I know business can keep you busy but thats ok. I would do it so i wouldnt have to work for someone else, but at the same time its not bad having a business to work at a little. That way you wont get too bored having nothing to do.

Basically on the part of not having done as much with my life as i wanted to do, its ok. I know what i want and even if it takes me longer i will achieve those goals. I have friends now that have the typical ingredients of what society says is successful; family, house, new cars, careers, etc. If you really think about that is not necessarily the success that people think it is. I read in a book years ago that there is no point in being jealous over what others have because wanting what they have means taking all the problems that come with it too. That is very true. My friends are not as successful as people think they may be, there is always more to the story. Some of them are doing well for themselves and that great, while others arent doing so good. One of my oldest friends is a real estate lawyer but has no work because of the current market. Others always complain about how they had their kids too early or are going through divorce now. Another friend of mine lost their house and another one cant afford their car anymore. I am just basically saying that people dont need to define themselves by what others deem successful. Yet unfortunately some people just had bad luck and unpredicatable circumstances that couldnt be helped. I am not trying to talk down about my friends but just making a point on how life can be and how it isnt what it seems. The grass is not always greener.

All in all, of my group of friends i am not the only one that wishes to go back to high school. It actually made me feel better about how i was thinking because for a time i thought i was the only one. Its awlays fun to go back and talk about good times and memories and stuff but dont dwell on them forever. People should move foward and work on achieving what they want and make their own goals. Dont forget the past though, it may be gone but its still a part of you and who you are. "Don't let your past dicate who you are but let it be part of who you will become."

I Hate Taking The Bus!

Anyone that has ever taken the bus might know what i am talking about. I am not talking about having to wait for the bus or not being able to find a seat or getting squished inbetween strangers. I am talking about the weird people that take the bus. To be more specific, i am talking about those weird people that just have to talk to you when you dont want to be bothered. I get this alot, especially from old guys. I dont know why, its weird. When i get on the bus i like to just sit by myself and listen to my radio and not be bothered.

Just last night i noticed this one guy get on and sit somewhere in the back. Then at the next stop a bunch of people get off and this same guy gets up and sits in the seat in front of me. Then he turns back in his seat to start talking to me. Let me tell you, this guy is not pleasant to talk to or to look at. He was older, 49, and looked terrible for his age. He was fat, ugly, bald, greasy, bad skin, and smelled. First of all, i am sleeping (not really but i pretend to so no one bothers me) and this guy purposely wakes me up. What the hell is that, seriously, that is very rude. The the guy starts talking to me. He asks the basic questions like whats my name and how i am and stuff like that. Of course i dont tell this guy my real name. He then starts asking me about what kind of music i like. After that he was getting persistant about using my cellphone earpiece so he can hear what i was listening to. Ew, that is nasty, either way i dont know this guy. Why the hell would i let him use something of mine that i put in my ear everyday. I refused to let him use it.

Then he starts asking me all sorts of other questions. Like my age, if i'm married, do i have kids, where do i live, where do i work. This guy is just getting too damn personal now. Is he trying to be my friend? Is he trying to hook up with me? What the hell. On the age question, i told him how old i was and he gives me a weird look and tells me "thats starnge." I ask him why and he tells me "well because you're ** and you dont have kids yet?" I hate when people act like if a women doesnt have kids by 21 or something like that then they are old maids. I tell him that its not weird, i dont want kids yet. Then, in what looks like some weird attempt to impress me or something he says, "well its no big deal, i'm 49, got divorced last year after 30 years of marriage, and still dont have any kids." Ok, and i am the weird one? Whatever. I dont care if someone never wants kids, its your life, but dont tell me that i am weird for not having them. I'm being smart by not having kids that i cannot afford to take care of or give them the life they should have just yet.

This guy actually asked me if loved my boyfriend and if he loved me, and other stupid nosy questions. Ok, this guy is just too much. Thankfully i was on my way to work and i work close to home so the bus right wasnt long. Also, thankfully, i am able to save most of my money and my first goal is to get a car again. I cant wait but have to be patient. It will come soon enough. Once that car comes i wont have to deal with these creepy bus people again. Most people on buses are just trying to get somewhere but there are always those few that just have to bother you. Well i doubt i will see him again but i was really disgusted by this guy. I am a very nice person but i will not go through that crap a second time. If i see him again and he tries to do the same thing i will tell him to leave me alone and move to another seat if i have to.

Working Woes

Well i have been away for a little while. I have a cherry coke on my desk that i am enjoying so now it's time to type. Just like some of you out there work has me very busy. You know, it's amazing how when you don't have a job then you want one or need one. Then when you finally get one, not long after, you just don't want to even go in anymore. Well for most people a job is nothing more than that, a job to make money, not something that you love to do. My new job is going good but recently i started thinking about some of my past jobs. Here are some stories.

I work in an office type environment. I like office work and am good at it but it's not really my passion. I like working with food more. Right now doing what i need to do. I used to work in a chocolate/ice cream dessert place and that job was my favorite of all the ones i had. Unfortunately, i had to leave that job when things got bad. The manager was a total idiot. At first she was ok and seemed to be doing her job right. Afterwards things changed, well they really changed the most after i had quit. Why did i quit? Because of the manager and her friend the assistant manager. What happened was that the assistant manager did something that was not appropriate to me and i confronted her about it. She wouldn't even apologize and out of spite she would make me clean the bathrooms and then even after cleaning them she wrote up written warnings on me. The manager wouldn't do anything either, even after i talked to her. Well the assistant manager got fired after i reported her and some time after i quit the job (because of the crap the manager put me through out of revenge) the manager got fired for doing a bad job.

Another job i had last year was a nightmare. The worse job i ever had. These bosses treated me like a slave. I was a store assistant for a store that sold beauty and spa products. I had the experience and thought the job would be great. I couldn't have been more wrong. Those people that owned the store were insame or paranoid or who knows what. The wanted 1 person to do all the work of the store but there was so much to do that it would take at least 2-3 or even 4 people to complete in one day. I just couldn't keep up with everything no matter how hard i tried. They would want to do different jobs at once and would get pissed off if i couldnt finish it. I wasn't fast enough for them. When i did data entry it took me a while to finish because i had some slow equipment. They didn't care, they just wanted the work done no matter what the cost. They even made fun of me and embarassed me in front of some customers. Speaking of customers, when people called to find out information about the store they would not at all allow me to give them the address or anything like that unless they were going to come in and buy something that day. They told me to tell people the website only. They never wanted anyone to go to the store unless they called ahead made an appointment or just happen to walk by. I would go home everyday exhausted from so much work. They fired me after 3 weeks. I was actually happen. Any would be in this case. Ever since then i see a new hiring ad from them. Well until i stopped looking online for a job when i got mine. Every few months or less they put out a new ad. They couldn't even keep anyone that long or would just always fire people for not living up to their standards. I even saw new people at the desk in there all the time. A friend of mine used to live near there and we loved this little pizza place that was in the same place. I would see someone new every other month. They shouldn't even be allowed to work with people. It's sad that people have to go through stuff like this when working for others. So, what are some of your work horror stories?

Got bad mood?

Well here we are again and another rant about work. It all started on the way to work last night. First off, it was raining, a thunder storm actually. I couldnt get a ride so as usual i had to take the bus. At first everythings ok and i didnt get very wet but when i got on the second bus the driver instead of waiting until i am completely inside the door he slams it shut and my umbrella got caught and broke. It was useless and had to be thrown away. He gave me a lame ass pathetic "oh, sorry," and what looked to be teenagers high off their asses couldnt stop laughing. I called him a few choice words under my breathe and then sat down.

Then when i get off the bus the bus driver could have driven up a little further so the people and me wouldnt get their feet wet but he wouldnt, even after i asked him if he would. So having to get to work soon i got off and my shoes got a little wet but nothing big, at least until i crossed the street. Much of the area was flooded. I checked and looked and there was just no way i could get into work without getting more wet so i just had to go for it. I tried jumping through the water to get to the door faster. Of course i got wet regardless. I hate getting my shoes, pants, and feet wet. So with wet feet, pants, and shoes i go inside to clock in. I'm sure everyone around me could sense my bad mood but people still talked to me. People keep bothering me, and asking me questions, and distrubing my work, and despite how nice they were or not i really had to resist the urge to tell them off, but of course bosses look down on that and will likely fire me. I am so glad that i have a lot of patience. I know its not a good thing to do and i am very good at separating personal from business but last night was just too much.

Thankfully there is a laundry room in my building so i put my socks and shoes in there to dry. Not feeling great at having to work barefoot for about an hour but the time passed quickly. I was so happy when my socks and shoes dried, i started to feel better. As the night went on things calmed down and got quiet and i was able to get some thing to eat and get work down. Then when i get home i went right to bed. I was tired and sleepy from working all night and needed some rest to get over the bad mood completely. After i got some sleep i felt much better, the mood was gone and it was another day. We all have those days where we've just had enough. But just remember to do your best to let it out at the proper place and time. In my case, no need to blow up at some idiot at work and get fired over it. After all the work and time it took me to get a job, hell no i'm not losing it over something stupid.

Co-workers at it again.

Ok, so i'm working now but should actually be home. I was supposed to just work a 5-11pm shift today but my relief never showed up. Yeah thats right, no one came. At first i think that the person is just a little late, thats normal here. I call the guy and nothing. After asking around i find out from another co-worker that he just quit yesterday. I mean WTF! Didnt he consider that no one might be able to do this shift. I heard that he got another job but damn, at least finish up the shift.

There's nothing i can do about that but considering that his shift was late and the manager was not around i wonder if she even knows or not. I know he was kinda fed up with the job so maybe he didnt even call the manager. I know he quit during the middle of his shift and got another co-worker to come in so maybe he didnt care enough to let the manager know. People do crazy things when it comes to work. I called all my other co-workers. No one can do it. They all work mostly the day shift and need to sleep. The one person with the day off that would do it cant because he's out of town. The person relieving the next shift might have come in early but i think she sleeping too because i get no answer from her. Hell, i even called the manager and no luck there.

Now i'm stuck working an extra shift. With both shifts together thats more than 13 hours. I dont know what happened but i'm definitely going to find out tomorrow. At least i have internet and can entertain myself so i dont fall asleep.

I don't get it...

The other day while at work i was waiting for one of my co-workers to come in and take over. I couldnt wait to get home, i was very tired. After she came in we talked for a minute and she had mentioned that one of the guests offered her a job. It would just be a summer position but it would be a exclusive position in an exclusive place up north.

First i didnt understand how the hell she managed that. First off she is rude to clients, never smiles, is impatient, and has complaints against her. All my other co-workers are great and have good attitudes and they agree that they dont like to work around her. I'll admit that she knows her job and does it well but what i dont understand is how she was offered this job. Somehow she must have been lucky enough to be nice one time to the right person. I myself have not seen her smile at anyone. He even wrote her a letter of recommendation that she showed me. I dont know how the hell she got that offer. She told me she is not sure if she should take it or not. I told her to think about it, weigh her options, and if the offer is worth it then go for it. I dont encourage people to leave opportunities just because of how i feel, thats a separate issue. Yeah i'll admit that i'm a bit pissed off about it. I am so nice to people and help them out even if its not part of my job but yet she gets offered a great summer position for not really caring about her job. Life is a bitch sometimes.

I just dont know why certain people get things that they dont really deserve while others deserve it more. The world seems to work that way. Well i dont know what her decision will be but it just makes me wonder whats the point of being so nice to people sometimes if it gets you no where. It seems that maybe being a bitch will get me more in life then just being myself. But then again i just dont like to be a bitch for no reason. Some people can but its just not me. Besides if i acted the way that my co-worker does i might end up getting fired while she still has her job. Thats another thing too, how the hell do some people get away with keeping their jobs while acting like this, while others do their best and end up fired. There are quite a few customer story situation my friends have told me about that would be perfect examples of this. Life can be great and yet so screwed up at other times.

Job Hunting...

So i went out with some friends last night for dinner. I used those KFC free meal meal coupons. What a rip off. Turns out that the huge demand for the free meals that now when you go to a KFC and turn in a coupon they just have you sign something and send you a coupon in the mail later on as a rain check. That sucked but anyway, as my friends an i were talking all kinds of subjects came up, including job hunting. One of them isnt working and she was telling us what it was that she did to find a job. Well unlike many people today she wasnt doing enough to find herself a job that she says she really needs.

My other friend and i gave her some advice on what else she can do to job search. I hope she takes the advice and she should find something soon enough. Like many other people out there i did just about everything i could think of to get a job. I looked online, in papers, networked, applied to places in person, asked friends, went to hiring events, etc. I'm pretty sure i did more stuff but cant remember everything right now. Its hard out there right now. All i can say is try as many different methods as you can to find a job. Like me, you just might get one when least expected.

Craziness at work

Have you ever thought of how stupid people at work can be. I went to work yesterday finding out that one of the guests there had to be thrown out. I wasnt sure why so i inquired about it and found out that this dumbass has did something just nasty. He guy did what you normally are supposed to do in the bathroom but on the floor of that bathroom and hallway. First of all you have to wonder what is going on in this guys head to do something like that. Not to mention he was also caught but 2 staff members and even denied it right to their face. He was forced to clean up his mess and then kicked out. Who the hell does something like that. This guy actually works in a restaurant/bar a block away from us. One of his co-workers spoke to me trying to find out where he is. He didnt show up for his shift but i called his job and let them know what happened. I'm sorry if he loses his job (which i doubt i'll ever find out) but i would not ever eat somewhere where this guy works at. I hope i find out what happened but we'll see.

Not sure how to feel...

I spoke to an old friend of my today. It has been years since we talked or have even seen eachother. I was happy to speak to her. We were teenagers we when last saw eachother. I heard from her because my mom went to visit her family. I would have gone but i have to work later today so i couldnt make it. The last time that i saw my friend i had already started college and she was going to start the next semester. Her parents were going to take her upstate and get her her own apartment and pay for school. She didnt have to worry about anything when it comes to school. Yeah i know i sound a little jealous. At the time i was.

So anyway, i speak to her and find out that she is now a real estate lawyer, married, and her husband is a project manager. I mean, as one of my oldest dearest friends i am happy for her and also felt kinda sad and depressed when she told me. I even cryed for a moment. It was like one moment we are just teenagers having fun teh suddenly we're grown up adults with lives and husbands (not yet for me) and stuff. I also know her family. They pride themselves on being successful as far as college, money, marriage, and having kids. I dont have any of those and i feel like when i see them again soon, for the first time in years-we had lost touch along time ago, will they talk shit because i am not at their level. That is actually the reason they didnt keep in touch with us that much, my family and i werent as well off as we used to be.

I'm kind of afraid of being judged by them because of my life now. I mean i am in college but have to take a little time off right now to make money, which is why i am working 2 jobs, to pay for school again. Financial aid has cut me off so i am on my own. I lost my car due to a hit and run in the middle of the night. It was around 330am and some guy smashed my car and left. Insurance couldnt cover it so i got screwed.

I guess i shouldnt let them bother me. I do miss my friend, she has always been a good friend, but i dont really hang out with her family that much. I found out from my mom that most of them arent living that great, they have gained a lot of weight and arent living the best life like they used to so i dont have anything to be jealous of or worry about. I guess shes right but i still cant help to feel the way i do. I'm sure others have felt the same at some point. I mean my friend might have her degree and be a lawyer now but she also told me that she isnt really working now because the market is slow. So i guess we are all in the same boat but just in different ways.

I know what i want and i will get that degree, a house, my own business, and all the other things that i want, even if it takes time. Having all that stuff sooner doesnt necessarily make you successful, just like beauty its in the eye of the beholder. But as i was saying before i still feel a little nervous about seeing them all again but at the same time and excited because i want to see my friend again. Hmm, i dont know how to feel. I guess when the time comes i'll find out.

Happy Mothers Day to everyone!

Criticizing Boss

As the cartoon says i will be talking about bosses here. I'm sure many people would agree that when you work your boss, sooner or later, is always right on your ass about whatever you do.

One of my jobs is a small part time concessions gig. i have been doing it for about 7 months now. I have always done great work. Not perfect, we all make little mistakes, but damn near.

I recently go over a cold so i was fine by the time i had to work. Everything is going fine but my co-worker gives me a message from the boss about how much of what to use. So i follow it and not long later he actually tells me "not to criticize you but if i told you to use this many ---- then why did you use so many ----." I was feeling fine but still kinda tired from my cold so i wasnt at my usual best but i was also following his instructions from my co-worker. If course it seems like this boss is one of those people that cant be wrong. I usually go with my instincts about how much inventory to use and i am usually head on but just didnt think at the moment.

Who does he think he is kidding, "not to criticize...," yeah right. Any little thing and he starts treating you differently. The new co-worker, his friend-i hate nepotisim, is getting more praise for barely doing much work. The boss is talking to him about opportunities that he used to offer to me. Whatever, its not like that job is forever anyway. Its just something to make a little extra money aside from my day job.

There are only 3 of us working there but the other 2 were fired recently. The girl i worked with, we became friends, was just ignored by the boss. She tried calling him and emailing him but he just ignored her. He wouldnt even call her back just to tell her not to come back. I hate not working with her but he is a coward. At least, he could have told her. Then the other co-worker was fired over a lie. He came in tired to work not long ago and the boss told me that he was drunk. He was not drunk at all. Others working with us said that same, no one believed he was drunk. The boss also brought in a new girl to start training. Why would he need someone new if there were enough employees. It was obivious he just wanted an excuse to get rid of him. I hate bosses like this.

When you work for someone else there are always problems and anything can happen.

1st pay day has arrived!

Hello fellow bloggers. This is my first blog and i'm happy to do it. I know that many people are suffering in this economy. I was recently unemployed too. I just started a new job last week and it is going good. I finally get my first pay check today in about a year and a half. Yeah it has been that long since i worked and the job search was hell during that time. I did everything from searching online, to checking newspaper, networking, asking friends, apply in person, and more.

Basically you have to keep going and keep trying. The job i have i almost didnt get it because i wasnt even planning on going in to interview. I saw the ad online and it said to stop by during some particular days to apply in person. There were only 2 days that they were interviewing and i didnt go the first day because something came up and i was busy. The second day i was thinking of not going simply because i wasnt in the mood to go out. I was feeling lazy and depressed. But somehow i decided to get off my ass and just stop by. I thought to myself "why not, you never know." So i went, although not feeling too confident about getting the job. I guess the not getting as many interviews and a lot of rejection over the past year can wear you down. But after going there and interviewing with the manager for a little while she, at some point, told me to wait and that she would be right back. So i wait and wait. After a while i was going to tell one of the staff members to tell the manager i had to leave. I got tired of waiting but just as i was thinking about doing it the manager comes back out and tells me to go back the next day and start training. I couldnt believe it. I thanked her and left to go go home.

I was so happy i started calling people to tell them. It goes to show that if you keep trying it will happen for you. We all have situation where we get depressed or have things that have stopped us from getting jobs or other things we want. The important thing is to keep trying and doing your best and it will happen. If you dont try then nothing happens.