


During all of this i really wish my boyfriend could have joined me. i miss him so much. i barely get to see him anymore. he's been working so much lately. i would rather have spent my holiday time with him than anyone else. but i understand his side, he is really focusing on making money right now to get us started off right. soon enough we should be able to get our own place and when we do then he will ease up on work and work a more normal schedule like i do. also once we have a place we will have more peace of mind away from our families and the crappy places we live in now and be able to work together on achieving our goal of owning a business and some real estate so we can stop working jobs. i cant wait. we did have our 12 year anniversary recently. yes 12 years we have been together. we went to a concert and had dinner after wards then hung out for a while.
Updates on my best friend are about the same. we have been talking more lately if you consider texting talking which i dont and i know many of you dont either. at least its something. we only actually talk when she calls me wanting to chat then we can finally chat for a while. i dont bother calling her at this time only b/c every time i have she gets distracted by anything and hangs up not even 5 mins later. oh well i guess this is just how things are with her now with the baby.
for now i'll just deal with it as is and maybe this is how its supposed to be now. i have my job which has been good to me for the 1 1/2 years i have been there and has given me the financial means to do just about whatever i want these days. in the past i had to rely on my best friend to go out most of the time or to pay for me sometimes which is part of the reason i feel the way i do. being able to make stable money has given me opportunities to go out with many friends more often, go to parties, buy things whenever i want, and even go out to things like concerts. i guess life found a way to balance things out for me and i didnt realize as much as i do now while typing this.