doing some serious thinking...(warning-long post)

I've been having a lot of mixed feelings lately. for some time now i have been thinking more serious about what i want in life. i'm talking more about the future. mainly my serious thinking involves both my boyfriend and i. mainly about where i see us in the future and about kids in the future.

I never really cared to have kids but my boyfriend definitely wants a lot of them. i guess being a little older now i have actually been thinking about having kids. i have made it very clear that if and when that time comes at most i would have like maybe 2 or 3 or so (it depends, dont know what the future holds yet). i wouldnt mind 2, a girl and a boy. of if i only had 1 i want it to be a girl, if i have more then one i want a girl first regardless. my boyfriend agrees with that, he wants a girl first too. i got him to realize that too many kids is just nuts. we have no way to take care of a lot of kids, let alone just 1 right now. and even if we have the means having too many kids is not necessary or smart, at least not for me.

Either way there are things i want us to have first. definitely i want us to get married first. we are engaged. i want us also to have a nice place together, either a good 2 or 3 bedroom apartment or even better, a house (basically a decent place to live and a good amount of space). i want us each to have a good car. i have one now but he doesnt. i have been doing repairs to my and its driving great. i want us to have a nice small wedding and a great honeymoon and do a little traveling and have some road trips (i would be happy with traveling at least 1 place b4 kids, preferably during the honeymoon or even making a road trip for the honeymoon). i want to finish school also, although i could compromise and maybe finish part of school after having a kid if it comes to that or doing something before, its hard to say right now. very importantly i myself need to lose weight as well. i dont wanna be out of shape when that time comes. most definitely i want us to not have to work. we want to own some businesses and real estate so that we dont have to have jobs anymore. the real estate wont be too easy but the businesses actually can be. there are some small businesses my boyfriend has the opportunity to own but he just needs the start up money (which is why he is working alot right now). we're sick of working for other people. i believe we can do it, it will just take a little time and money.

These things arent just to prepare for a kid, this is more of us living and enjoying our lives together before devoting a lot of it to kids. its just not the same when you dont have kids and are free to come and go as you please and answer to no one then when you have kids and have to take care of them first before you can do anything you want or need to. to me having these things in place will be beneficial for when a kid does come in the picture. i want us to have had a life and have done stuff together, my man and i have been together for years but have not been able to do much together in all this time. once kids come into the picture you have to dedicate so much time and energy to them that you just dont have as much time for yourselves, at least not at first. if you have a good support system then its not so bad time wise. to me it seems like alot of people get married to just have kids in wedlock (i actually know a couple like that, another couple that doesnt love each other but married just for the kid, and yet another couple where the wife is pregnant b/c her husband wanted a kid-in reality it was to keep her trapped). i just dont wanna be one of those women that ends up having kids, stays stuck at home, and regretting their lives and never being able to go anywhere or do anything. i refuse to end up that way. i never liked the stay at home mom lifestyle, for anyone that likes that life more power to you but its not me. i know i might sound bad or maybe even like a kid hating bitch or whatever but thats not the case. its just not all that simple. i want to have lived and have had a life somewhat before having a kid and even when the kids come into the picture i'm not just gonna be a stay at home mom either. of course i will be home to raise my kid but thats just not the only thing i wanna do. i'm not giving up my personal life entirely b/c of a kid, i still want and need to live as well. becoming a mom shouldnt mean that your individual self is done. i've it happen too many times which is why i have been scared to have kids for so many years. thats why i want and need to have these things in place first. i dont want to regret my life or my child.

At this point in time my best friend is about 8 months pregnant. i am happy for her but i dont feel happy about it deep down. i dont let her know that though. my issues right now have nothing to do with her. its my personal feelings that i have to deal with, no one else. we hang out and stuff but being that she is a slender petite girl she gets tired easily and she doesnt even want to go out at night anymore b/c she is tired. thats normal of course but what worries me is that i think she will change completely once her daughter is here (yes she is having a girl). she changed and became one of those doesnt want to work anymore wives b/c the man makes enough money kinda person. that was not the kind of person i knew her to be before she got married. and i'm afraid that once that baby is here that i will barely ever see her unless its to go to her place to help her with the baby or a doctors appointment or something like that which is guess is ok but it will frustrate me at times when i just wanna hang out with her. her mom is living with her and helping her but who knows if she will be scared to leave the baby with her mom even for just a moment to go to a movie or out to eat or something, i hope she wont be afraid to do so. i hope she doesnt forget herself just b/c of the baby. she didnt really plan on having a kid now, she wanted to start later this year or next year but her husband wanted to start. something happened b/w them recently that made him want to start having a family in an effort to make them closer. sometimes having a kid will do that and sometimes it wont. depends on the couple. this couple in reality is nothing more than he wanted a kid b/c he did something recently that almost broke up the marriage (after a while and a lot of fights she forgave him) so he wanted to the kid thinking having a family will make them closer and he knows that she wont leave if she does have a kid b/c she wont the lifestyle that he has provided for her. in my opinion this is kind of a sad reason to have a kid. for her, shes in her early 30's and doesnt want to wait too much longer and possibly not being able to have a kid b/c of the biological clock women have (typical situation for a lot of women). i consider that clock to be so unfair. it forces women not ready to have a kid or those who want to wait to have one before being ready and if you dont you might possibly never be able to have your own or it will be too hard to do. yes there is adoption and other options but its not the same compared to having your own.

I know this is a long post. i meant to post it some time ago but kept on editing it once a while until i felt it was right. i love having a blog so much. i can write what i want and get out feelings and frustrations i am dealing with without anyone knowing who i am or getting mad at me for what i wrote or thinking i am a freak b/c of what i wrote. thank you blogger.com

Getting back to business....

Hey everyone. back again. i was finally able to catch up on reading blogs today and posting on my own again also. a lot of the blogs i read have pretty much done the same thing. some havent posted in a while due to work or other issues. well same here, work is keeping me busy and tired usually. but cant complain, i love having a good job that pays well and where i get along with everyone.

Well its pretty much the start of summer. i hope everyone is enjoying themselves and having fun going to the beach or whatever. i just wish it wouldnt get so hot in my area but hey its summer. it rained today in my area but not much. there wasnt been much rain last year or this year over here. i actually want a good hard rain for a day. i live in florida and florida is dry right now, we need rain. also i like rainy weather and would love some water instead of hot sun for a change.

As far as whats going on with me is that i did get a car not long ago, back in april. not a new car but i love it. took me a little time but i saved the money, brought it, and its all mine. got the title already too. it feels good to own my car and not have to make monthly payments. still have to do that with the insurance unfortunately but thats part of having a car. still have a few repairs to do but nothing major. still saving for an apartment but once the car is done that wont be a problem. gotta say it feels so good to be able to drive to work and anywhere else i need to go w/o having to rely on a bus or someone else to take me somewhere.

I also had my 2 year blogiversary last month but didnt post b/c i actually forgot from being busy. i have almost forgotten how good it feels to blog. its a great outlet to express yourself. i mean i can write things on here that i cant or dont share with anyone else. well thats it for now. i will be posting again in a day or two. got something more on the personal side of things i wanna blog about.

Car search continues...

Well i have finally had a chance to clean out the car. it is really to sell. i'm really just trying to get the best price i can from a junker but someone walking by me earlier while i was cleaning it out asked me if i was selling. i said yes and we talked about a price. she said she would talk to her husband and see if he was interested. if he is then i can get a little more than i would from a junker so i will give them a chance to contact me today. if not then i will just contact a junker tomorrow and be done with it. i have been searching for another car but everyone is either asking too much or selling a crappy looking lemon. i'm not desperate so i can wait a little longer. although it is a little frustrating to not be able to drive for now but i can deal with it. i've dealt with worse. you know the old saying, "what doesnt kill you, only makes you stronger."

busy, busy, busy...

Hello everyone. i have finally found some time to post again. i have missed doing so but have just been so much more busier than usually lately. first off i would like to say Happy Valentine's Day to everyone (i know i'm a little late). i hope everyone had a nice romantic valentines day. what did i do? unfortunately nothing. had to work but its ok, my man and i will see each other soon again. as much as i would have loved to have gone out on valentines day its not mandatory. although it was a little saddening when i saw friends on facebook


Either way the car is broken down and neither of us can drive anywhere. but thats ok though, i never liked that car my boyfriend bought. its too big, wastes gas, and is expensive to fix which is why i am currently looking for another car. its not easy looking for another car, i cant afford too much, and many people are just plain greedy. they want too much for a car and wont negotiate. many cars also have issues. i dont have time to fix a car, i need a good working car now. i would love a new car but that is just too much money. i dont wanna spend years paying off a car when i can just spend a little now and buy it at one time.


Now for some good news. as of last month i was promoted at work. only 6 months at my job (at the time) i was made a manager and given a nice raise. it feels good when a job actually appreciates your hard work. i feel good about it. its nice to be in a higher position and make good money. i hope to stay at this job for a while. and the extra money i'll be making will really help with my goals of buying another car, getting an apartment, and hopefully this year going back to school. we'll see what the future holds.

Happy New Year!

I cant believe its new years eve already. this year went by so fast. i actually remember what i was doing around this time last year. well for me i unfortunately have to work tonight at midnight. oh well, at least i have a job so thats something to be grateful for during these times. my boyfriend was going to join me tonight but his family really wanted him to go to church with them. if he didnt then they would give him crap for a while. i told him that it was ok. not that i mind that, not at all, but i was hoping he would be with me tonight. looks like i'll have no one to kiss at midnight. i do plan to go see him in the morning after work so it'll be ok.

I just havent been as much in the holiday spirit as i have previous years. this year is the first year i have ever had to work on the holidays, not during, but on the actual holidays of christmas and new years. i guess i am feeling a little down because of it. i'll be ok though.

When i deposited my paycheck today i was looking at the pay stub b/c i noticed my pay was higher than normal. i saw that my rate per hour was increased by $2. i was very happy to see that. now if that is permanent or temporary i dont know for sure. my bosses do own me extra money so that could be how they are paying it to me or maybe i have been doing such good work (i know that i have b/c i have been told so) that they raised my pay. thats something i was happy about.

Well anyway, i hope everyone has a Happy New Year. i hope we all see some nice fireworks tonight. have a great time, lots of fun, be safe, and may the new year bring good things to everyone. see you all next year, lol. :)

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays everyone! i know i havent posted in a little while and i am sorry for that. we all get busy around this time of year. well last time i posted it was thanksgiving. since then a few things have happened.

On nov. 29 my boyfriend and i celebrated our 11th year anniversary together. yes 11 years. we have had a lot of good times and some bad times. every relationship goes through that. regardless i love him very much and can deal with another 11 years, as long as he dont drive me crazy, lol.

I also got a $50 christmas bonus check from work. not great but its something. i have been working a lot lately. unfortunately i had to work this morning and will be working again tonight. i even have to work at midnight on new years. great way to ring in the new year. oh well, as my boyfriend says its better to ring in the new year with a job than without. i think for new years i will get to work on purpose a little late so at least my boyfriend and i can kiss at midnight. or maybe get there a little early, turn on the tv in one of the rooms (if there are any empty ones-i work in a hotel for anyone that doesnt know) watch the ball drop in nyc (i always watch timesquare at new years every year) and ring in the new year together. its better that nothing.

Well for christmas today i stopped by a 7eleven in the morning, brought a few things and went home. i opened a few presents with some family members and we had breakfast together. i got a radio from my dad. my mom is living out of the country and she will be visiting next month. we will have to wait til then to see our gifts. i had to go to bed this morning so i did and slept most of the day. it felt great. i havent slept much in a while. my family went out to see some other family. i havent gotten all of my presents yet. some of my friends had to be with family so my friends and i will be seeing eachother over the next few days to exchange gifts. my boyfriend had to be with family too but i will be going to see him soon before work and we will exchange gifts then. i hope he likes what i got him.

I will be catching up on everyone's blogs soon. well everyone i hope you all had a great christmas. have a good night, keep warm, love eachother and enjoy eachothers company.

Happy Thanksgiving and Black Friday.

Happy Thanksgiving and Black Friday everyone. usually i would have posted yesterday on the actual holiday but i was just tired and thought it wouldnt be a big deal to wait til the next day. well i hope everyone had a good and tasty thanksgiving. my dad did the cooking this year and it was just a few relatives. my boyfriend had dinner at a relatives too. if he doesnt his family harasses him, lol. we had of course turkey, i just brought a turkey breast. there wasnt many of us so we didnt need a big turkey. we had dinner rolls and other thanksgiving foods. dessert was pumpkin pie and ice cream. i didnt eat too much, yes i was full but more of a satisfied full then a about to explode from eating too much full that is typical of thanksgiving. but you know how it is after you eat on thanksgiving. you get relaxed and sleepy. i laid down and relaxed with some tv. unfortunately i fell asleep and woke up at 11:20 and had to be at work at midnight. i was so pissed off at myself. sometimes my body will wake up if i have something to do but i dont like to take the chance. i would usually set my cell phone alarm but i forgot. luckily i only work 5 miles away from home and dont take much time to get ready so i threw some clothes on, did a few other things and was on my way. i got there and parked right at midnight and went to the office. i was only like 5 mins late, not a big deal but i am so glad i woke up when i did. i wont do that again, i will try to always set my alarm.



As far has black friday i dont go out. its just too crazy and i do not have a need to buy stuff like crazy just b/c it is cheaper. it just doesnt seem worth it to me. and waiting in such long lines from whatever time the store opens up. for those of you that do go out and shop on black friday, not trying to put you down or anything like that. its just not my thing. but if you did go out and shop i hope you got what you wanted.

Why are holidays being rushed?

To tell you the truth, i really hate when stores bring out holiday items too early. for example last year i was seeing christmas stuff in stores before thanksgiving, but this year christmas stuff is out even before halloween was here. i really hate that. why so early. yeah you can get the stuff cheaper when buying earlier but at the same time you limit the shelf space and therefore you limit the amount of holiday items you can display. makes no sense to me but i guess business wise it does. even then business wise i still say its too early.

I especially noticed this in walgreens. i love walgreens but even they annoy me when they do this. i was in a walgreens not long before halloween to buy some candy. there was halloween and autumn/thanksgiving and christmas stuff all up in the same isle ready for selling. i wanted to take a pic but felt weird and didnt want anyone to think i was weird for doing it, and i didnt know if i would get in trouble either, probably not but who knows.

I remember a friend once telling me that they dont mind b/c they like christmas and want to get as much of it as they can. but if they are not hanging up christmas stuff early or celebrating any part of it yet then what is the point. you can still get the same cheap prices for christmas stuff if you start buying in early december like i do.

Whatever, i just feel like stores are trying to make time go by faster and it is already doing that on its own. time doesnt need any help, i actually wish it would slow down a bit. to me i dont start buying any christmas stuff til december 1st. yes i think about christmas before december b/c i love christmas but i like things simple and my holidays in their order. october = halloween, novmeber = thanksgiving (and black friday but that is a whole other post for another time), and december = christmas and new years after. thats just me.

What are your opinions about this? i am sure that at least some of you have seen this in your areas. i would love to know your thoughts about it.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Happy Halloween everyone! trick or treat, lol. i love this holiday; the candy, the costumes, scary movies, and ghost shows on tv (ghost adventures is my fav).

Well as for me i will be working tonight. its ok, i work on the beach so i will still get to enjoy candy and halloween costumes anyway. besides i havent had a trick or treator in years, and none of my friends ever throw halloween parties. thats ok, i usually go to a club or maybe an area (an outdoor mall near near my job for example) and just have fun with friends. i dont really dress up anymore since i dont feel the need to waste the money unless my friends do or i am going to a party or somewhere where most people are dressing up. i do miss dressing up, i love costumes. this year i did buy some cute cat ears so i guess that is my costume.

Anyway for those of you that will be going out tonight i hope you have a great time, be safe, and eat your candy. i know i will. ;)

And please feel free to enjoy the vids on the left side of my blog. the character talking is named foamy. i love the series, its hilarious, and much of what is said is true and makes you think while entertaining you. i suggest you watch the vids i posted, you'll love them. the creator has made a lot of them. if you would like to see more you can go on youtube or the website, http://www.illwillpress.com/. i posted part 2 above part 1 b/c part 1 is from halloween last year, part 2 is for this year.

It's Pumpkin Time...

Just yesterday i stopped by a pumpkin patch near a park i went to yesterday. a friend of mine invited me to a picnic. when i saw the pumpkin patch i decided to stop by after the picnic and walk around and take some pics. i'm going to share some with you.















I had a great time. i actually havent been in a patch like this before. i have gone to places to buy pumpkins and stuff but never this nice. it was nice to also see all those families out there enjoying themselves and taking pics. the second picture shows a section of the patch where you can pay for your pumpkins and buy other stuff like teddy bears, drinks, pumpkin bread loaf, etc. i brought a cute little teddy bear thats holding a pumpkin and is wearing a little black shirt saying happy halloween. all the money (i think all, or maybe most, not sure) went to charity. i will show a pic of it in my next post.

Being Appreciated...

I just finished working 7 days straight. wasn't too bad but i'm glad i didn't have to work last night. gotta go back tonight but at least i feel more rested. anyway this long week that i worked was a little different b/c i had to do some training. not myself actually but 2 new people that were hired. i personally don't really like to train but was flattered. my supervisors told me that they thought i was the best employee there and that's why they choose me to do it. they even choose me over the guy that trained me when i started. they thought i would train the people good. i am happy that my job thinks of me that way. its nice to be appreciated, especially when others jobs haven't.

Well i hope that i did train them good, i think i did. either way we will soon see. they will be starting on their own soon and will have to prove themselves. i thought that one of them did better than the other, jobwise. i even thought that only one would be hired but i guess they will be trying them both out. lets see how that goes, i hope they do well. i am just glad to be done with training. the new people were nice and fun to chat with but i'm just one of those people that prefers to do their work alone, and my job is more peaceful that way too. yeah i like to chat with my coworkers but when i do my work i prefer to be alone. my boyfriend and even my parents asked me if i was training replacements for myself. thanks for being happy for me everyone :/

Whatever, its my job and its important what i think about it and how i do my work. they aren't there with me and aren't doing my job for me.

Who loves cooler weather? I do.

For the first time yesterday i felt the temp change here in miami. i work on the beach and when i left work yesterday morning the breeze that came in from the ocean felt nice and cool. its the first time in a long time that it felt that way. it felt great. it was the same way today, nice and cool and cloudy. i cant wait for the temp to get a little cooler so i can start wearing sweaters. also, not having to use air conditioning all the time is nice too. it saves money and natural cool air is best anyway.

October?! when did that happen...

I cant believe its october already. where did the time go? i love every season for different reasons but i think Fall is my favorite one. the temp starts to cool down (not much in my area so far), you can wear more clothes, a lot of shows start their new season, and its the start of the best holidays of the year (in my opinion). more horror movies start to come out in theaters. the leaves start to change color too. well i unfortunately dont see that since south florida doesnt really have the types of trees that change in fall but i'm fine with that. i could always road trip to see that if i want.

Well as i said its october already. what do you think about that? what do you love about this time of year?

Rainy Days

Last night and all day today has been raining. we're being effected by tropical depression #16. its the one thats coming up north through florida from near south america. it'll be heading farther north. my area has had quite a bit of rainy days during the summer, some hard rains too but nothing as long. of course it is going to last for a while longer.

Personally i dont mind at all, i actually love weather like this, especially when i am on my days off of work so i dont have to go anywhere. i just wish i was in an apt with a balcony so my boyfriend and i could sit on it and admire it together, yeah he loves this weather as much as i do. i only hate it if i have to go out in it but if i can be home when it happens then thats when its great.

Unfortunately the car i am driving now has a leak in it somewhere and water is gathering on the floor of the car. it has happened before and i was hoping to find the leak before this storm hit but i couldnt. theres not much i can do until it stops raining and try to get that water out somehow. my dad suggested i get someone to drill a hole into the floor so whenever water comes in it will just drain out on its own. lol, my dad has great suggestions. i just might consider that one.

Well for the moment it looks like it has stopped raining but for how long? i will be going to watch some tv and relax knowing that i dont have to work tonight.

Progressing...

Hello everyone. i got caught up on all my blogs today. it felt good to do so. well things are starting to progress more. my boyfriend and i are closer to getting a place. i am really hoping that it will at least by by november or december. november b/c its our anniverary or december b/c of the holidays. i would love my own place to decorate and have friends over and stuff like that.

Over the weekend my boyfriend and i went to the movies and we saw "Wallstreet, money never sleeps." we loved it, great movie, i recommend it to anyone that hasnt seen it yet but wants to.

For the moment i have given up the car search. i have just seen nothing but crap or scams lately. i am looking for a simple used car, something reliable, saves on gas, and not too expensive. everything i have seen so far is either too expensive or too old and still expensive or a piece of junk. i know the economy is bad but you cant expect someone to pay you money for an old car like it was a newer car. get real. well as long as the car my boyfriend and i share is working ok thats fine with me for now. i'll keep looking for something else later on.

Work has been going well too. i believe in my next paycheck i should be earning an extra dollar per hour. i hope so, i have been at my job for around 3 months now. i like this job, nice co-workers, i love my overnight shift, great location, free parking, etc. its rare to find a job you like and i am happy to have mine. it would be nice to live near but the area i work in is a nice area but at the same time not the best to live in. its kind of a 50/50 feeling. of course if you have a lot of money then it is desirable. maybe if i can find a nice little place thats afforable then yeah i would consider it. i work by the beach and i love the beach but with all the events (especially memorial day weekend), easy flooding after hard rains, the bridges you have to cross to get there, and other stuff its not really the best place to live.

Anyway in general things are going well and will be getting better soon. as always i will keep you posted. i hope everyone is doing good in their lives.

It feels good to be back...

Hello everyone and happy friday the 13th. i didnt even realize it was until a friend of mine mentioned it. it feels good to be back. i am sorry i havent posted in a while. a lot has happened. last month i had an accident while going to work. my boyfriend was dropping me off at work and it was a stormy night. we both got out of the car and were hugging goodbye when a large metal object hit me in the head. we're not sure where it came from since it was a stormy night. it did cut me so my boyfriend drove me to the hospital right away. it happened only 10 mins before my shift was suppose to start. my boyfriend called my job and told them what happened so they could get someone to cover my shift. i ended up having to get 8 staples in my head. yes it was painful getting the staples but at least after the initial hit in the head and getting the staples i am fine and have no pain. i am very thankful that i am ok and that it wasnt worse. the staples came out a week later, that was painful too, and i have healed just fine. i actually went back to work the next day after getting hit.

Since then i have been working more hours at work, helping friends, helping my parents (one moved recently so i had to help with that), and i have been feeling down lately. i am pretty much ok but i have been frustrated living with family lately. my boyfriend and i are almost at a point to get our own place. it cant come soon enough in my opinion. i am a patient person so it will come soon enough. having to share a car is frustrating too. my boyfriend is going to help me get a car but i still have to wait for that too for a little while longer. the important thing is that we are working towards our goals together and having a little patience will pay off.

Basically i havent been posting b/c of all this and as i said, feeling down. but i have been feeling much better mentally and spiritually so i should be posting as normal again soon. i will soon catch up on all of your blogs as well. for now i am going to relax and get a little rest. i have to work later. i hope everyone has been doing good lately.

Here we go again...

I had mentioned in one of my previous posts about being fired from my last job and that i was still looking. well the search is over i have already found another job. its almost hard for me to believe. about a week after i was fired i was called from a i sent my resume to job, another hotel front desk job, and they said that they wanted to hire me. so i go in and i was just given an interview. the lady said that she was going to call me later that day, when she didnt i thought that i didnt actually have the job so i moved on. i kept looking and last week i was called to come in and start training. the lady called me only some hours before she wanted me to come in. i didnt care, i was just happy to have another job again, and so soon too. after about a week and a half of training i started working on my own earlier this week.

I have to say i love it there. the work is so much easier than at my old job. the environment is so much more relaxed and my co-workers are nice. the employees have their own private bathroom by the front desk and there is a large balcony to hang out on, well when the owners are not there of course. hell i even get paid the same money per hour. i also dont have stress to deal with for now and its very calm and quiet. its a small place so there are barely many people to deal with. i like it there and hope to stay a while.

I have to thank my boyfriend for giving me the advice of not caring if you get fired and not caring if you get another job or not. it actually worked for me. with this job and the previous 2 jobs i also had the advice proved to be true. employers will more likely give jobs to those who dont need it or dont want the job. i have not ever gotten jobs so quickly. once again thanks to my wonderful boyfriend for being there for me and helping me out.

Well i am off to get ready for work. working overnight shift tonight. even the overnight shift there is nice, its very quiet and peaceful. i actually kinda enjoy my job and dont mind going in. i hated having to go to work at most of my previous jobs but when you find something you like doing (not my dream job but its good for now) you dont mind working as much. also i love being able to continue working and keeping cash flow coming in.

Good teachers deserve to be recognized...

This past sunday i went to a retirement luncheon for a former high school teacher of mine, a music teacher. many of the people that went were in the band or did a lot of music stuff back in school or maybe even did a music major or something similar after high school. i have always loved music but mainly listening to it or playing the piano (i did when i was younger) was my kind of thing. i would love to play instruments again but just dont have the time.

Back during my 10th grade year i had a music class with this teacher and i loved it. i chose to play the drums. truth be told the other drummers and i would practice, as we were told by the teacher, in a small room in the classroom. it was kinda of a storage room but very spacey and since drums were loud we wouldnt disturb anyone else. we loved it. we played more card games than we did practice, but dont worry, we all did practice on our own at home.

This music teacher has been teaching for 35 years. wow, can you image that. more than half of those years he taught at my high school. there were many people at the luncheon, some were unable to attend but i would say were there in spirit, some send emails and videos saying how they wished they couldve been there, others were pissed off that they didnt know or couldnt go for whatever reason. either way my friends and i had a great time. the food sucked big time but it was still fun. the teacher got awards, letters, videos, gifts, donations, and more from everyone. he even got a letter from Obama. he is an amazing teacher. as everyone says the music program at my school wont be the same with him gone.

On a sad note, i believe the main reason he is retiring this year (he wasnt planning to) is because his wife passed away some months ago from cancer. she taught at the same school as him. so sad for him to start his retirement and a new chapter in his life without the one he loves. i know i am going to give my man a big hug and kiss today and tell him i love him. i always do it anyway.

When you have a good teacher you will always remember that. there are many i remember for bad reasons but really good teachers are few and far between. do any of you have a memorial teacher? what subject did they teach? cant wait to hear your stories.

Making changes...

Hi everyone. as you can see my blog looks a little different now. ok maybe a lot different. i just noticed the new template design feature for blogger so i decided to work on it. so after a while of working on my blog i have it the way i like it. what do you think? i have added new stuff including a video section. i will be posting videos of stuff i like and want to share so keep an eye out. i have also added pictures, a chat box, and more. it took a while but was worth it. for a while i had looked and looked for a new design but found none that i liked. so at least with this i can play around with my blog and make changes easily to suit me. i also noticed some of the blogs i follow have made changes too.

At t he moment i am still looking for a job. it feels a little weird not having one after having worked for a while. oh well, something will come soon enough. i am just grateful that i was able to save enough money just in case another job doesnt come up soon.

I was going to post about it before but forgot. last week i went to the movies and saw Shrek: Forever After in 3D. as a movie i liked it. i thought it was good, but as for being the last movie in the series i say it could have been better. for the story line they should have added more details and definitely it should have been longer. it was only about 1 1/2 hours long. that just sucks b/c i love the Shrek movies and such a short time for the final movie was disappointing. but i would still say go see it, it is good to see anyway.

I will be catching up on blogs tomorrow. right now i am tired and sleepy. its off to bed with me. i hope everyone has a good day.

Feeling Free...

Hello everyone. i hope that everyone had a good long weekend this holiday. unfortunately i had to work but the last day i worked on Monday, the actual holiday, was insane. so many check outs to deal with and check ins. i was exhausted by the end of the day.

Well as most people were on on their holiday and are now back to work i was getting fired from my job. yes, you read correctly, i was let go from my job. lol, that's a first for me, getting fired on a holiday. i actually wasn't the only one. my co-worker, the other person that was hired around the same time that i was, was also fired. it was strange both of us getting called into the office at the same time. i was coming off of my shift and my co-worker was starting.

I had a feeling getting called up to the office wouldnt be good and i already had the feeling for a while that i wouldnt be there long. i didnt want to be anyway. i have gotten to the point of not caring if i get fired from a job or not and that same attitude has helped me get other jobs right away. i wasnt happy there and besides i have money saved and my boyfriend is working and told me i dont have to work again. he has money saved up too.

The manager gave us different reasons for letting us go but anyway whatever the reason i no longer have my job but thats ok. i feel great and i feel free. like i said i wasnt happy there anyway. my boyfriend is proud of me for what i said and how i am keeping a positive attitude. my best friend feels kinda bad for me but i told her not to. even though i just got fired on monday i already have job interviews this week. i am also going to relax with finding jobs. since i really dont need the money as much i will now look for a job thats more part time and something that i enjoy doing. i am great at office work but enjoy food service. if i find something full time thats ok too. not being in school gives me the time to work for now.

Well thats my situation right now. lets see how soon i can get another job. besides this one good thing is that my boyfriend ensures me that we will be able to move soon. we almost have enough money saved up. i am so happy to hear that. it seems that for once things are going good and going our way. hopefully before i know it i'll be able to move and have a job that i can enjoy.